Like Butter

I am really feeling the truth behind what a friend of mine said to me tonight: "It is really difficult being the ones who get to spread the light." This world is so full of people who want to destroy life, crabs who want to pull down the others who are escaping the box. I really felt that tonight as my sister insulted and berated me. I made the comment that I was sick of how completely ungrateful for everything my family was, and that unleashed within her every judgment she held against me and my life. Then came the chorus: my other sister, my mom and my aunt joined in on the brutal harassment. I felt simultaneously absolutely astonished and extinguished.

I know I'm not perfect, and I know I never will be, and I also know that I am truly a spreader of light. Whether or not I like it, that is my mission on this planet. I can do that through many mechanics: homosexuality, dance, music, fashion, volunteerism, film, celebrity, sports, health and coaching to name a few on which I am gaining more and more clarity every day.

It is difficult for ME to be a spreader of light for two reasons: I've never had the example set for me so it is completely new to me, and because I currently don't have many examples to which I can look either...I am learning it almost wholly on my own (though not alone). I get to learn a completely foreign concept and way of being AND learn to learn AND manifest simultaneously. Bring them closer together, and I will create and manifest and enjoy my success...