Cherishing Another Is Bliss

Okay, I got this posted on my Facebook wall today and was just flabergasted:

Thinking about you this morning, I want you to know that i fully support you in what your choosing to do, idk much about the decision to move and thats probably why i put out the selfish part that i have. And both are true, yes i am selfish and do want you to stay for me ;) and yes i do want you to move and make that choice for you. I am excited to know more about it and also to see the results that you create with the change that your making. Living in L.A. Is only a challange of distance and the friendship that is established between the two of us is easily large enough to cover that distance. Love you.

The person who posted it is someone who I hold incredibly dear to me, and I know he loves me, but I've never known if he holds me dear to him (there is a difference, if you ask me), and reading this post, I now know he does.

It feels so amazing to feel cherished by someone :) If you've never felt that way, I suggest you make a habit of cultivating relationships such that you can experience it. 'Cause, seriously, it's amazing....I'd forgotten what it felt like for someone to express to me that they respect me, love me, and think so highly of me and our relationship, that I had begun to think it didn't matter anymore or that anything could replace that cherished-feeling, and experiencing it again this morning just showed me "WOW, that is SO not true."

Pure love is one of the most blissful feelings a spirit can feel. May we all constantly feel it and connect in all our relationships in such a manner...All we need to do is sweep to the curb our agendas, biases and judgments...and why not, knowing what we can give to someone else...knowing we can give them this amazing bliss? Thank you, Garrett, for the experience and for reminding me how people deserve to be treated :) I love you, buddy!!

Founders is the most influential LGAT I've ever encountered

Is it technically cheesing out on a committment if I snuck in and started the last blog at the last minute before the day ended, though I didn't finish it until the clock had past the strike of midnight? I vote no so I can have peace of mind. That's a win/win: you get a lovely new blog and I get peace of mind. Me likey :)
(In perfect truth, I started it before midnight on Saturday so the published time stamp would be then, but then I slept for TWELVE HOURS, haha, and am now actually starting to type it all at 4:12 pm on Sunday....and I probablhy won't finish it til like, 7 pm-ish tonight...)

So I have quite a bit to blog about today. I staffed the final day of Founders and wow, was it spectacular. I'm upset I choose not to go into details, in order to save the sacredness for those who have not yet experienced it, but I can say that I did something I have not done in....god, I don't even know how many years...maybe six? I prayed. In front of 40 other people. And I did something I have never done before. I prayed with a full, contrite, grateful heart. It truly was one of the top experiences of my life, that moment. And I thank Jayson Orvis, Brett Harward, Jocelyn Harward, Randy Blosil and, mostly, Walter Allred for bringing me that experience.

I never knew I could feel so intimately entwined with any form of deity. I never knew that I could feel as a deity myself. I never believed I could feel so secure surrounded by my closest loved ones. I never thought that I would be thankful for some of the things that came to me. I am so grateful for the opportunity to have noticed the things I am most grateful for, and really come to terms with my life in the most powerful, clearest way possible.

I was bawling throughout the prayer, swearing a couple times, too (haha) -- it was the sheerest moment of my perfection. And I am SO, unrepayably (if that is a word...if not, it is now) grateful and indebted to Walt, Randy and Jocelyn. I am upset that this blog could never -- nor could mere mortal expression -- highlight, let alone fully express, either the gratitude I feel toward them, or the peace and love I feel for myself and for the spiritual part of me, that beautiful essence of me with which I have so long feared connection. Neither could I ever humanly express what I experienced. It was the breakthrough of breakthroughs for me in this moment of my life. It was like connecting with everyone in the entire world simultaneously in the same moment and bringing that home to myself, and feeling every piece of the depths of it in my heart. It was like glimpsing at whatever it is that makes up the oneness of us all and saying "I love you" and having that love silently, humbly returned to me. It was forgiveness and peace and clarity. It was generosity and love and humility. It was complete oneness. It was grace. And yes, it was definitely How God Enrolls. It was the deepest moment I have ever experienced in my life, and I am grateful that it was first and foremost with myself, as well as with my dearest buddies.

Thank you to all of those who share this blog with me. Thank you for listening. Thank you for your compassion and care. Thank you for your depth, your trust, your willingness, and your peaceful grace.

Now it is your turn:
What is the deepest moment you have ever experienced? How do you feel about spirituality, and what is the path you have taken to come to that conclusion?

I IMMENSELY look forward to reading your comments.

With Love, Peace and Grace,

Ryan!