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9.29.2010

Where Are My Viewers From?

This was the count for this week....I just think it is so cool to have so many international readers! :)


United States
105

South Korea
25

Russia
15

Colombia
14

Canada
10

Germany
2

South Africa
2

United Kingdom
1

Hong Kong
1

Latvia
1


Thank you to everyone who reads and subscribes! :D
<3

9.22.2010

I am Powerful. Silly me for Forgetting.

As I pointed out in the last blog, I go throughout my day and have many opportunities to tell myself "I am not good enough." And, I don't know 'boutchall but when I do that, unless I catch myself the VERY next moment and reaffirm myself, then I get stuck in that moment, and I live in my negative self-talk. I almost did so about 2 minutes ago.

I decided I wanted to put onto my Facebook a link to one of my songs so that I could share it with all of my loved ones. Because it didn't have a button that said "Attach music file," I thought, "Oh, I can't do it, there's no way I could figure out a way to do it." And I REALLY wanted to share the song so I decided fuck it! I'm beating that negative thought! I said to myself, "Find a way, dammit. You're amazing and intelligent!" So I did. :) I realized I could post it here, and then post my blog link to my Facebook page. THEN, as I was typing that JUST NOW, I realized I don't know how to post a song onto my blog, either, haha!! So, guess what I did. I Googled "How to post a song on Facebook" and man, did I find a bevy of resources! I am actually currently looking through them, to see what will be the best option, Lol. So look forward to my link coming soon on Facebook....HAHA!

(I know this probably all seems so simple, but it is truly amazing to me what I can do when I believe in myself and have 110% determination to accomplish something -- and on the flip side, it is TRULY amazing to me to see what simple things I can't accomplish when I make that momentary choice to think down on myself...)

Loves!

-Apollo

9.19.2010

Perfection: A Choice

As I read a friend's blog today, I thought about all the things I say "I'm not enough" for. Just last night I was texting a friend and when she asked me what stops me from loving and accepting my body, I told her all of them. I think there were about 7 in all. And that was just for my body -- this mortal casing! I read through the comments on that friend's blog and people were listing all the ways in which they believe they are not enough for something. I came across one that said "I am not athletic enough to do cross-country" and immediately I thought "Well, that's silly! Part of participating in a sport is learning it (in my beliefs)!" So that person is perfectly enough to do cross-country, as they will learn along the way the best ways in which to stay in shape to continue successfully doing cross-country.

Then my thoughts refocused on me -- every time I look at my P90X CDs, I think "I am not athletic enough." YES!! The VERY SAME thought!! LOL. Well, doing P90X is not about being in perfect form...it is about GETTING in perfect form. And how will I do that if I continue to believe I am not ready to do it?? If I were not ready to do it, I would not own it. And I own it, which is me telling myself that I am ready to tackle my body issues. And now, having shifted my perspective to that, I am PUMPED to take on P90X! Crazy how a simple shift can change so much.

How do you believe you are not enough? Please, comment below with those beliefs. And then question them. You ARE perfect enough in every moment, so WHY do you believe you are not enough, in those specific ways? Because we are all imperfect enough in our own heads and perfect enough in our hearts.

9.17.2010

ANT: My "Almost Nationwide Tour"

It is my "Almost Nationwide Tour" because I am not visiting West Virginia or Nevada. That's right...those states are so sparse and unnecessary that they are the ONLY states in the entire Union with no perceived value in them. Kudos to those two states. LOL.
AH! I just realized I'm not going to Hawai'i either....but that's just 'cause I can't RV across the ocean. Haha. There would be TONS of value in Hawai'i.....but probably not much musically....mostly just lying on hammocks on the beach without a care in the world.......HAHA!

Following is the list of places I WILL be visiting, playing in, volunteering in and (possibly) working in, beginning January/February 2011 (in order):
West Jordan, Utah
Murray, Utah
Salt Lake City, Utah
Sundance Festival, Park City, Utah
Sundance Festival, Salt Lake City, Utah
Bountiful, Utah
Ogden, Utah
Logan, Utah
Jackson, Wyoming
Island Park, Idaho
Bozeman, Montana
Coeur D'Alene, Idaho/Spokane, Washington
Seattle, Washington
Bellingham, Washington
Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada (recreational purposes only)
Seattle, Washington
Portland, Oregon
Salem, Oregon
Newport, Oregon
Crescent City, California
Klamath/Eureka, California (solely for Redwood Nat'l Park purposes)
Santa Rosa, California
Berkeley, California
San Francisco, California (also, stopping at the Getty Museum)
Sacramento/Citrus Heights, California
San Francisco, California
Santa Cruz, California
Monterey, California
San Luis Obispo, California
Santa Barbara, California
Thousand Oaks, California
Malibu, California
Calabasas, California (maybe)
Studio City, California (solely to stop to get TV spots)
Burbank, Californa (solely to stop at Jay Leno's studios and get an impromptu playing)
Hollywood, California
West Hollywood, California (including Park La Brea)
Beverly Hills, California
Century City, California
Santa Monica, California
Venice Beach/Marina Del Rey, California
Redondo Beach, California
Long Beach, California
Huntington Beach, California
Newport Beach, California
Laguna Beach, California
San Clemente or Oceanside, California
San Diego, California
Tijuana, Mexico.......for obvious purposes..... :D
Yuma, Arizona
Gila Bend, Arizona (maybe)
Puerto Penasco, Mexico
Tucson, Arizona
Phoenix, Arizona
Flagstaff, Arizona
Albuquerque, New Mexico
Juarez, Mexico (maybe)
San Antonio, Texas
Austin, Texas
Houston, Texas
Lafayette, Louisiana
Baton Rouge, Louisiana
New Orleans, Louisiana
Vicksburg, Mississippi
Birmingham or Montgomery, Alabama
Atlanta, Georgia
Tallahassee area, Florida
Homosassa, Florida (yes, JUST because of the name)
Tampa, Florida
Apollo Beach, Florida (YES! THE NAME!) :D
Cape Coral, Florida
Sanibel Island, Florida
Barefoot Beach, Florida (you gotta check that shit out, right?)
Naples, Florida
Miami/Miami Beach, Florida
Key West, Florida
Nassau/Nicholls Town, Bahamas
West Palm Beach, Florida
Orlando, Florida
Daytona Beach, Florida
Jacksonville, Florida
Savannah, Georgia
Charleston, South Carolina
Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
Sumter, South Carolina
Raleigh, North Carolina
Richmond/Mechanicsville, Virginia
Washington, D.C.
Baltimore, Maryland
Annapolis, Maryland
Dover, Delaware
New Castle/Wilmington Manor, Delaware
Atlantic City, New Jersey
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Soho/Chinatown, NYC, New York
Coney Island, New York
Brooklyn, New York
East Village/NYU/Meat Packing District, NYC, New York
Wall Street/Times Square, New York
Central Park, NYC, New York
Manhattan/Harlem, NYC, New York
Mt. Vernon/Yonkers, New York
Stamford, Connecticut
New Haven, Connecticut
Hartford, Connecticut
Cranston, Rhode Island
Providence/East Providence, Rhode Island
Somerset, Massachusetts
Boston, Massachusetts
Manchester, New Hampshire
Concord, New Hampshire
Portland, Maine
Deer Isle, Maine
Quebec City, Quebec, Canada
Montreal, Quebec, Canada
Burlington, Vermont
Montpelier, Vermont
Syracuse, New York
Rochester, New York
Buffalo, New York
The Niagara Falls
Toronto, Ontario, Canada
The Niagara Falls
Erie, Pennsylvania
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Youngstown, Ohio
Akron, Ohio
Cleveland, Ohio
Toledo, Ohio
Detroit, Michigan
Ann Arbor, Michigan
Dayton, Ohio
Columbus, Ohio
Cincinnati, Ohio
Lexington, Kentucky
Knoxville, Tennessee
Nashville, Tennessee
Bowling Green, Kentucky
Indianapolis, Indiana
Gary, Indiana (maybe)
Chicago, Illinois
Milwaukee, Wisconsin
Eau Claire, Wisconsin
Duluth, Minnesota
Minneapolis, Minnesota
St. Paul, Minnesota
Cedar Rapids, Iowa
Peoria, Illinois
Decatur, Illinois
St. Louis, Missouri
Memphis, Tennessee
Little Rock, Arkansas
Branson, Missouri
Tulsa, Oklahoma
Witchita, Kansas
Topeka, Kansas
Tonganoxie, Kansas
Kansas City, Missouri
Independence, Missouri
Des Moines, Iowa
Omaha, Nebraska
Lincoln, Nebraska
Sioux Falls, South Dakota
Pierre, South Dakota
Rapid City, South Dakota
Mt. Rushmore, Keystone, South Dakota
Dickinson, North Dakota
Billings, Montana
Casper, Wyoming
Cheyenne, Wyoming
Laramie, Wyoming
Fort Collins, Colorado
Denver, Colorado
Littleton, Colorado
Grand Junction, Colorado
Arches National Park/Moab, Utah
Green River, Utah
Price/Helper, Utah
Duchesne, Utah
Park City, Utah
Brigham City, Utah
Twin Falls, Idaho
Boise, Idaho
Kennewick, Washington
Yakima, Washington
Seattle, Washington
Everett, Washington
Surrey, British Columbia, Canada
Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada
Abbotsford, British Columbia, Canada
Chilliwack, British Columbia, Canada
Kamloops, British Columbia, Canada
Clinton, British Columbia, Canada
Prince George, British Columbia, Canada
Vanderhoof, British Columbia, Canada
Houston, British Columbia, Canada
Prince Rupert, British Columbia, Canada
Ketchikan, Alaska
Juneau, Alaska
Skagway, Alaska
Whitehorse, Yukon, Canada
Haines Junction, Yukon, Canada
Silver City, Yukon, Canada
Dry Creek/Snag Junction, Yukon, Canada
Northway Junction, Alaska
Tok, Alaska
Fort Greely/Delta Junction, Alaska
North Pole/Fairbanks, Alaska
Wasilla, Alaska
Anchorage, Alaska
McGrath, Alaska
Nulato or Galena, Alaska
Koyuk, Alaska
White Mountain, Alaska
Nome, Alaska
Wales, Alaska
Anchorage, Alaska
Glennallen, Alaska
Jasper, Alberta, Canada
Edmonton, Alberta, Canada
Calgary, Alberta, Canada
Lethbridge, Alberta, Canada
Great Falls, Montana
Helena, Montana
Butte, Montana
Island Park, Idaho
Rexburg/Rigby, Idaho
Idaho Falls, Idaho
Pocatello, Idaho
Garden City, Bear Lake, Utah
Logan, Utah
Eden, Utah
Antelope Island
Sugarhouse, Utah
American Fork/Lehi, Utah
Orem, Utah
Provo, Utah
Draper/Sandy, Utah
West Jordan, Utah
188 locations in all.
Sigh. This feels good. :)

The Village!

Many of you may have noticed my previous post, which discusses my vision of RV'ing the country doing acts of service, singing my songs in random places, and doing day labor in different cities across the U.S. (And if you haven't yet read that, go check it out and then come back to this post.)
Well, I was just turned on to this online service, and I dig it. I plan to build a "village" and participate as needed in order to secure my funding for this vision I have. I ask you to join my "village."

What I am asking is clear (and I have posted links that can assist you in getting even clearer beforehand): Check out the links, join my "Varolo Village," watch ten minutes of videos every day to casually make money for yourself, and assist me in making money for myself without having to rely on funds from you personally! To ME, it sounds like a great idea...a great chance for me to be able to accomplish my dreams, and for you to be able to earn money while feeling good about assisting me as well.

Number One: It is a sort of MLM, HOWEVER (and this is a HUGE "however") it does not seem like it is out to fuck anyone over. It is completely free to join, there's nothing you have to order or pay for in fact....none of that regular MLM B.S.....the payout system is simply set up like a pyramid such that we can share and assist one another in getting money. Check out the following link to get the EXACT details:
http://blog.varolo.com/flash/VaroloComp.html
(BTW, the video is a little long, but it is really worth watching the whole thing because it is very informative, honest and clear)

Now, if you want more information on the service itself, go to this link and watch this video:
http://blog.varolo.com/flash/Varolo12Min.html
(Honestly, I didn't see much value in this one because it is just like a longer version of what is told to you on the sign up page, and it didn't add anything really important to my decision-making factors. And honestly, this is really only about making money really easily, for all of us, so the more important video is the one I posted first :)

Number Two: I ask that those who are interested sign-up, and be active, so that we can all assist one another in making money. And if you end up getting uninterested, then un-sign-up! LOL. It's ridiculously easy, the whole thing. And that is all that I am asking. Nothing else. It's that simple, uncomplicated, and value-oriented.

To sign up in my "village," and possibly even begin one of your OWN, follow this link: http://www.varolo.com/d/node/12?id=elnaevrtre%40lnubb.pbz

Thank you ahead of time. This is a huge step for me in advancing my biggest life-long dream, as outlined in my previous Note. Seriously: thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

Loves,

Apollo!


P.S. -- please discuss any questions, comments, etc. here so I know my feedback :) Thanks!

9.16.2010

I'm RV'ing Across the United States, Giving Music, Service & Worth

1) I am getting with Shawn Saunders, Justan Peterson & Jordan Beckstead to make music to my lyrics.

2) I am recording the finished songs with John Rogers & Joshua Voiles and posting them on Facebook, YouTube and MySpace.

3) I am driving an RV around the country, playing my songs in parks and other random locations, for optional donations and love.
The RVs I am interested in are here (in order):
http://www.cruiseamerica.com/buy/vehicleDetails.aspx?stock=300639
http://saltlakecity.craigslist.org/rvs/1947230399.html
http://saltlakecity.craigslist.org/rvs/1947425464.html
http://saltlakecity.craigslist.org/rvs/1954227465.html

4) I am eating delicious food while I do all of this.

5) I am going with at least one of the following beautiful, joyful, adventurous, radiant and giving travel companions: Mary Gwilliam, Jason Harward, Jordan Norman, Jordan Beckstead, Jared Orvis, Garrett Robarge, Allisa Mason, Lori Baldwin, Melanie Muranaka, Kellen Jordan, Jace Wilson, Jackie Peck, Jameson Harris, Walter Allred, Justan Peterson, Kasey Murdock, Shawn Saunders, Kylie Owens, Colton Jones, Rob Morris.

6) I am committing charitable acts along the way. I.e., experiencing and serving the homeless culture in a different city, serving children in underprivileged schools and neighborhood clubs, refurbishing ghetto areas, walking dogs and puppies, and more.

7) I and each of my travel companions work in each city while we are there (doing whatever we choose), for two purposes: to give back to the road and earn our keep, and to temporarily experience life in another city as a different kind of citizen.

8) I prefer that my loved ones fund this for me initially. Honestly, I am completely broke, that's my (scared-to-admit) vulnerable truth. What I know about myself is when I have a financial backbone, I don't feel worried, frantic and scarce-minded, and instead can more easily, efficiently and effectively focus myself on leadership and huge value creation in every moment. I am committed to making this happen, whether or not that initial funding comes, and I appreciate every single person who DOES choose to enhance my journey with that initial funding. And I am not asking for a handout with this. If you do choose to give any money to me to assist with this, I will ONLY accept it after we have worked out some kind of terms and conditions.


I am open. All I care about is that I create this for myself. There is no other option for me. I am open to giving to you whatever I can give to make this happen. If you see value, jump on board and see how you can assist!

Please leave any remarks/questions/comments/feedback/additions/suggestions/requests you have.

Thank you! :D

9.10.2010

Why I Should Forgive Me

I need to start forgiving myself. Because I don't, I hurt. And I continue to pile up negative thoughts about myself and my choices, and I continue to hurt. I fall into deep depression, and the only time I ever feel like I can actually breathe is when I get just above the tip of the water -- to a place where I don't fully believe in my pain, but I definitely don't believe in my joy, either. I've experienced what I believe to be pure joy possibly 3 times in my life thus far. And it is because I am too far into my own asshole of depression to feel anything else. One step I've identified today as a possible way to change this and start feeling REAL joy more often is to forgive myself for the "mistakes" I've made. Noticing that any "failure" was just a chance I took, and noticing why it may have turned out as a failure. I will never KNOW why it was a failure, but I can do my best to guess at why, subsequently teaching myself what does and what does not bring me joy. Let's see if it works.

*Specifically, the things I am forgiving myself for right now are:
1- My decision to lie to myself in order to create a dream world so I could be a part of something I thought I wanted, but that in reality was not the right fit for me.
2- The repetitive choices I made to give myself away freely without receiving anything back.
3- My unwillingness to speak my truth, in fear that I would lose what I only dreamed I had.
4- My holding back everything about me (the beautiful AND the "ugly") in order to please someone else.
5- My true self giving in to my ego self every step along the way in the past few weeks.
6- My disappointment and self-flagellation over my tendency toward anger.
7- Hiding, and not getting what I really want.
8- Being okay with (and even idolizing) something that is not the most loving choice for me.

9.07.2010

Hi. I'm beautiful.

How often do any of us go up to someone and introduce ourselves as such? I'd wager never. How often do any of us go up to someone we're meeting and even THINK that? I'd wager not quite often...I know I often don't.
And I feel beautiful, REALLY beautiful right now. And it doesn't feel quite fleeting.

Now, every time I meet someone new, I will shake their hand and say. "Hi, I'm Apollo!" and inside I will think "I am beautiful" or "...and god I'm gorgeous!!" and really feel it as I shake their hand. How might that feel to get a handshake from someone who truly knows and feels their worth and their beauty and emanates it??? Well, we will see, won't we?! Lol